Enjoy Life

2009-03-17T15:18:00.001+08:00

As I am writing tis down, I am in class which my mind not here at all. I’m still feeling lost and not sure wat I did was the right way a not. Wat I did was to search google.com for “ how to love” and click “ I’m feeling lucky”, wat I found was tis….http://www.wikihow.com/Love. The more I read, the more I feel tat maybe I am making a huge mistake but it has been the same mistake I did few times. The website says tat “if we are finding for trouble, we will definitely find it”. I believe tat is true and I feel guilty because I did jus tat. If I were to turn back time, I might jus make the same mistake again because tat is who I am. I need to give myself time to rethink of how I have been thinking of “love”.

The day I said those words, and the person tat I feel I can turn to, was my mom. I open up to my mom and she comfort me. At that point, I feel tat her words are true and I express my feeling towards her. She said many meaningfull things and it is the fact. I myself feel tat way and thinking of moving on…

Until today tat I feel tat maybe it was my problem as well but it might just be too late as I have already gave the person I love wit so many mistrust. The website says tat “If you feel any doubt of love your partner has for you, make sure that your suspicions are grounded in reality. If you hurt your partner as a result of undeserved mistrust, he/she may end up doubting both your love for them and theirs for you. “.

I may have let my friends and my mom down after wat there have to say about my relationship but deep down I feel tat maybe I have” twisted” the story as how I wan it to be without knowing it myself until I have cool down.

Of coz I am very thankful to my friends and my mom for being here for me. I gave it many though and if I fall, at least I noe u all are there for me.

I think tat if I understand a bit more about love now and feel like patching up, would it be too late? Maybe the feelings towards me is not there anymore but if maybe u r reading tis, maybe I still have hope…

2009-02-15T22:50:00.012+08:00

Valentine Day is full of lovey dovey events but both of us make it more than that. We were able to add in fun (present hunting which both of us need to buy for each other gift in MV in an 1hour and half), excitement ( conflicts), relaxing(walk in the park and movie), entertainment( giving each other nice surprise), scenery ( View Small Genting wit sparkling juice) and of coz love( everything add together). Here is the things bought from my date....

Started off is to find the present inside my car itself, the first item i found is a empty, so i continued looking.... and i found...

This, a box full wit stars and a note

"….. Ops, Finding present for V-day is it? This is not la….. But there’s something “big” inside. Go look for it…."
and so i cont. looking and actually is the...

"DO NOT OPEN" quote from the box

box tat is said it is not for me... haahha... lame? but i am touch with the effort i am more touch with wat is inside the box. There is lotz of heart shapes inside wit a note

"….. There’s 520 folded hearts inside my box, I folded by myself for you….. This is my first time celebrating V-day with my really own love ones….. Wish both of us will love each other 4ever."

Thanks for the very wonderful V.tine present which make this not only an unforgetable day but also showing me how much u r willing to do for me^^

Thanks for the Hunting Present as well which is very cute, everytime it move, my head also move. ahahahaha

520 to u

PS: i wrote "1st V.Tine Nite in my life wit u, happiest nite^^" in my msn nick and i got responds

colint***** says:
omg gelinye nickname *vomit*
jessie_*** says:
Your personal msg very yok ma ar..

Evil bitches^^ but special thanks to both of u.

2008-10-05T23:30:00.002+08:00

This few days have been like clubbing everynite and back home around 5am, this few days have also open my eyes on somethings and eventually make me realise there are many things that get me jealous and envy but as i tried to be more open minded about it, it came to my sense that life is much better. So wat if i'm single and the rest of my friends are in a relationship? So wat if my friends got laid and i went home alone? So wat if life is just a bitch?

Many thinggs in life we will be envy of someone else stuff, gf, bf, watever it is but thinking in another way, they are other ppl who are far pity then me and life is more bitchy for them. My life may not be as perfect as some ppl but at least i have friends, real good bunch of friends who are always here for me. Yea, maybe sexual stuff my friends cant give me but, can settle myself lar.

Of coz i still hope one day i will eventually found someone i can share my life with but maybe not the time is not here. My taste on my desire person is changing, i don't jus need someone adorable but only care about ownself but i need more then that. i dont like it anymore driving around fetching the person i love everywhere just because i have a car. i dont like anymore to give face everytime the person i love is piss off. I want someone who i like and also able to be in the same shoe as me.

2008-09-24T14:46:00.002+08:00

It seems like yesterday that we were together, hand in hand, arm in arm together talking about how greatful we have for each other that things happen like it should but why izzit that it was not a hapi ending at all? i jus.......

" everytime i am thiking of u,
I just dunno wat to do,
Pinch myself went i am dreaming of u,
Making sure u can love me too,
I would slip away,all my hapi days,
So i'm acting cool,
Went i am feeling blue,
To show i am thru with u"

miss u a lot and jus cant let go of it.

2008-09-17T22:50:00.003+08:00

Being in this world like for quite some time( 21years actually) and i feel that somethings cant be change or be force. Life is short, jus let it go and continue with my life...

2008-09-17T02:09:00.002+08:00

Why did u leave me like this? Why izzit that everytime things seems to go smoothly and eventually something happen? Why izzit that i fall for u? Why is life so unfair....

I noe how it feels to get betray by someone u love coz it happen to me... not jus once or twice yet i nvr learn my lesson because i wan to fall in love but no matter how, the result will jus be the same. Izzit a curse? i wonder....

I miss tis pic and the time where everything was not so complicated....

2008-09-15T00:12:00.003+08:00

Jus got the mood of blogging and though of writing some stuff i feel like saying out but dunno where to express it. It has been a rocking journey in tis past few months. Broke up a few times, found out stuff i rather not know it, did badly for my exams and assingments and some other stuff.

Have u ever fall in love with someone that u should not have or already know that that person is a player or is actually having a relationship but eventually as u found out, the person says to u, " Actually i already wanted to tell u" or that person dont give a damn to u anymore and didnt even say goodbye?

I have and it was not good. It all started with some happy fairy tales story and u though to yourself " i think i found the one" and everything was smooth, the eye contact was there, the feelings was there, the communication was perfect, the night was perfect and you though nth would go wrong at all.... BOOM, i found out that i was jus the 3rd party. But inside your heart, u still hope one day, the person come back to u.

I guess that happen to many many people before but i always believe in karma and learn to just take it like a man and move on wit my life.

2007-02-11T22:04:00.000+08:00

" Have u ever fall in love before?"... " yea, onces... "

Yesterday my friend was asking me

Friend: er, jus wanna ask, have u date before?
Edmund: yea why?
Friend:Coz i nvr see u with a gal before
Edmund: maybe coz i have not been dating seen...

Until today that i though i found someone, i dont have the courage to ask her and i guess it is too late. Anyway, this was my fantasy first date for her on the day full of love, 14th Feb 2006

I though i would send a mail to fly fm to ask them to help me with my date on their 'Flirty at 10' but still dont have the guts... and i...With a rose i am holding that could say a thousand words, with a night full of magic, i was at her place outside her hse waiting for her. She would dress to her best yet simple, feeling jus cant be writen how gorgeus she was but i would throw away my rose jus to get 101roses for her jus to have her to walk out from her hse again. As i drove her to a place full of magic...

"Life is a road
And I want to keep going
Love is a river
I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road
Now and forever
Wonderful journey"
from At the Beginning by Richard Marx & Donna Lewis

2007-01-20T20:36:00.000+08:00

KickStart@ Dancespace
This post is for Kickstart at Dancespace. It was a Wed night as my dance mate ask me to join them at Sri Hartamas for this event. The event itself was very amaxing as there were performances by pro latin dancers and the enviroment was good. Another amaxing stuff is that i got to dance back together with my dance mate as it has been months we lepak together already. Really miss those days... here are some picture for the night^^

*the dance floor*

* Danzer*

*camwh*ressss

* me with one of the danzers^^

*commentless*

After the event, we went to one of the cafe in Hartamas to yam cha... and here some of the stuff we did there^^

this is call ART^^

and to sumarize this up, it was an AMAXING NITE^^

2007-01-09T22:08:00.000+08:00

i will be busy for this few weeks due to ASSIGNMENTs( last minute work), lack of sleep( fever jor), slow connection. Will update ASAP later.

Here are some random pictures that i snap this few days going out with my friends.

this machine was packed with ppl waiting to punch it... wtf...-_-'

paying to punch a machine... why dont jus punch the pillow for free?

wow, one of my friend can bend his thumb... weirdo^^

This is my last pic for now... i dont like ppl smoking as well as i dont smoke. But most of my friends smoke like there is no tmr. Here is a pic i snap went there cant smoke in the mall, here is where they rather go jus to have a smoke...

and most of them are underage...

ps: soli, pics are blur for a reason...and the reason is not u^^

2007-01-06T16:40:00.000+08:00

Mua 1st OFFICIAL Car...^^

Wow, wat a day it was yesterday, i woke up at 1pm in attention to collect my car but eventually my car is only ready at 5pm…. Ish… so I online till 5pm then went down to collect my car. I AM SO SO HAPPY!!!!^^ Went I got my car, this was the shape of my car…

It was actually quite dirty as it came from the factory and didnt wash the car and I need the car to be tinted at 6pm. So, I didn’t wash the car and straight away I went to tint my car’s glass. So, here is where my car transform… I added accessories for my car^^….. wait… before I continue with the accessory, i am going to name my car “Em Yeng” coz I feel that the shape of MYvi is weird but cute^^
So, Em Yeng started to change it glasses…. With a darker and better glasses that can reflex heat better^^

Then after changing the glasses, Em Yeng added some stuff to absurd heat and sound at the bonnet….

At the same time, I also replace Em Yeng’s eye brow because the original eye brow was to small to protect the glasses from the rain…. ^^

As for security, I gave Em Yeng an extra lock so that it would not get rape easily.. cost around RM400++...ish...

For accessories, I also added some bling bling for Em Yeng door handle and also added an extra red bling bling at the back of the car…. oya, and also at the side of each door, i added protection(small wan jer) for Em Yeng

and after all...

My FIrst Car was BORN^^

2007-01-05T01:21:00.000+08:00

No car, no fun...
OMg, tmr i am getting my car, FOR ReaL. It has been so long i wanted a car and now my wish have came true. Yes yes, maybe i didnt bought it myself and eventually my mom is buying for me as i still cant afford to pay for myself. Nvm, i will eventually pay for my own petrol and i think eventually i will be more kiam sap then usual already.

The past went i am still driving my mom's car( petrol under mom)

Friend: Come let us go yam cha at kuchai lama

Edmund: okok, i come fetch u now

After my brand new car is here(petrol i pay)

Friend: Come let us go yam cha at kuchai lama

Edmund: okok, that will be rm5 not including me fetching u home.

Friend: .....

So, that might jus be the way i would say it directly if i really have no petrol for my car.

ps: i still remember those that actually fetch me before.... time for pay back o....^^

This few days i actually miss going back to college as my life now seems to be meaningless coz:

1. i sleep at 4am, wake up at 4pm

2. everyday sleep,eat,dota, movie(sometime)

zzzzNEED FOOD
galz do play dota^^

3. i have not been going gym for the pass few months.... getting way thinner then before...

4. do wat boys normally do^^

So, eventually today i start doing my assigment but half way went out yam cha already...lol. and now is 1.34am already, think i will sleeping easrly to and hopefully to wake up earlier^^

ps: CONNECTION STILL VERY SLOW... cant log in msn, slow display of pics(xxx).... how to master***....ops.... i mean how to study lar^^

2007-01-03T21:46:00.000+08:00

Step FAMILY

Step brothers/ god brothers. During my secondary school time, there were time where everyone wanted to be related to each other somehow. There are 2 category that most of them like to be related to, that is:

a.Step Brother(Kai Sai Lo/ Kai Ko)
b.Step Sister(Kai Mui/ Kai Ji)

Even myself have a number of it. So, wat is the benefit of having them?

a. During school breaks, went i need someone help(money, talk, love), there can be in handy…. “Kor, erm…. I no money to eat wo, give me some”

b. A good way to get to noe a girl better is to actually ask them to be ur step sis(kai mui) and eventually like wat the chinese always say “ Kai Mui, Kai Mui, Kai Seong Chong”… meaning, “step sister eventually sleep together”

c. Step bros, and step sis can also be a sort of protection or if there is any trouble, step bros would help u out…” Kor, that ‘p*k kai’ stole my girl, go beat him ”

So, eventually today I have lunch with one of my step bro from my school time, Chun Ting. It was always nice to meet back old friends and eventually there were lotz of stuff to talk about coz I have not been seeing him for quite some time. We noe each other for almost 4 years, saw him grew from a shy boi to a boi u cant shut his mouth even with glue.

anyway, i got to go now, my friend keep bugging me to go yam cha. See ya...

Random old time pics during school time

* crazy perverts ever*^^

*miss those days**Blue hse victory...*

2007-01-02T04:49:00.000+08:00

NEW YEAR RESOLUTION 2006

Most of the blog I surf around will have a resolution for the new year. So, I though, why not I do that as well^^…. Yes, this is my first time doing it. So, if there is any mistake, don’t mind meJ

So, wat do I wan to achieve this year? Erm… and here are the TOP 8 resolution…

To get myself healthy and get myself out of this think body and have some muscle. And be more leng zai.... hehehe... cannot ah? blek^^but totally not like this...but she is pretty...

Get more new skills to work and lvl up, communication skills( flirting^^)- lvl2, need to up 1 more lvl.

Take care of my new MyVi once it is here, really sayang it and give it a name….Betty? Suki? Naruto?

DO NOT FALL IN LOVE like there is no tmr…NO!!!!!!

Control myself from ‘highness’…^^

Yea yea, study hard for my future…-_-‘

Lvl up my dancing as well… I wanna move it like this, I can shake it like that^^

Earn more money then usual

So, I think that should be my top 8 of my resolution for year 2006.

2007-01-01T21:29:00.000+08:00

Last Post For 2006

Hey blog, i have been avoiding u seen.... i dunno how many months ago as 2006 was not my year( eventhough i did have some super time in that year), So, i though i will round up my 2006 on the first day 2007 coz.. i feel like doing it. Ok, here goes

January-February-March

erm... i dont remember much about it... yea, i dont remember a thing about it... dont remember either....
er...eerr....errrrr...... omg, really dont remember wat happen here.... i am having amnesia-_-'.... NEXT

April

Finally, i remember something....^^
21st April- Apiit Ucti Sports Carnival, i was the PROJECT MANAGER for this event and i did a
SUPER JOB compare to last few years. It was my first task and it was big. Lucky i have my
friends and Student Arc helping me out. THanks u guys!! It started off jus fine and end a
bit late due to Football... too many teams^^. Here is some random pics on that day...

May

Nothing much happen this month.... NEXT

June

45MIniT On The Phone WITH MY POPO... if u have read my old blog u will noe, if not nvm... NEXT

JUly

This year BAD EVIL things happen a lot. Actually this bad things has a story. It started
with my mom as she went for check up(yearly) and after few days the the result came back and
it was a shock that she was infected with Human Papillomavirus(HPV).... nop, it is not HIV
but almost like it. Let me put it this way, 'my mom say that bad luck come in 3'(my mom
thought she have this bad luck thingi. So,

Bad luck 1= she got HPV( she is fine now after surgery and is very healthly now^^)

Bad luck 2= on the 4th July, First time in 5 years the car(kembara) got rob, meaning there
break the window and stole the smart tag and my wallet... assh*le

Bad luck 3= on the 7th July, my hse got rob in and stole a total or rm7000. So my hse became the crime scene and eventually CSI MALAYSIA CAME!!! yes yes, there is a team in M'sia.
hahahaha

There is other more bad lucks but i think this is enough for this month.

Here is some GOOD things that happen this month. My burr day, 14th July, i got to celebreate
it at Taylor's Dance Competition 2006 as Syden( the official 5 dancezs) got in to the final
but didnt won first place but it was a super night. I enjoy myself that day even i didnt get
much present but this was a special burr day. Thanks for everyone that was there to cheer
for us( Fin, Jini, Angela, Jamie, Jamie's mom, my dance club mates, my mom, sis... and the
list goes on)

August

7th August- Went to Genting with IccG crew and Sarc. Jon got drunk and it was a great time
to relax after Iccg.

Sydens are a unik group in it, each of us are defferent by age and dances. We have latin
dancers, hip hop/ break dancer, gymnast and ballet dance. We have from 11 to 19 years old
crew in it. Some random pics of Syden.. * we didnt take a group pics.. terlupa*

25th August- Syden has expanded from 5 to 11people. Wow, and on this day we did a
performances for Apiit UCTI Multicultural Night. Syden work together with some indians grils
to perform a dance call 'East meet West' or some call it 'Fusion Dances'. U can watch below

27th August- The Syden went global, by competing in the Hip hop competition at Shangrila
Hotel. It was the first time for most of the Sydens for a hip hop competition.

September

Syden got to perform for Nicholas( Apiit Lectuer)'s wedding dinner at Bukit Jalil Club
resort and got our very first PAY CHECK. Even it is a small amount but it feel great to get
paid to dances.

ps* not all the Syden crew was here as Nicholas was choosing the dancerz and wat kind of
dances he wan. soli for those that was not here.

October

22nd to 24th Oct, PD & Melaka Trip- Yvonne Chang's family, Stepfanie Soh's family and my
family went to PD and Melaka for vacation. It was not really that interesting at first but
eventually the trip came out fine as we went swimming, finding crab, snap pics, walk from
places to places and ate lotz of food!!!. Here are some random pics from the trip.

November

My moms burr day party suprises- 11th Nov was the day, me and my sis and my Ah Yee( my mom's
sis) plan to suprise my mom with a party at Bumbubali somewher near IOI mall.This was the
plan:

1. Brainstorming who can we invite.

2. Start calling them and inviting them,( friends, cousin, exs.. cant find, hide the
diary-_-')

3. Budget it out

4. Dont show any sign that we remember her burrday, normally my mom will take us out for
dinner for her burr day... yes yes, i am a bad boi not to save money to take her out^^ and
that's why this year i try to make the effort

So, everthing was working as plan, she dont noe a thing but eventually my mom called Ah Yee,

Mom: my burr day is tmr, so got any plan

Ah Yee: i dont think so

Mom: Then i think i will go out with my friends on my burr day

Ah Yee: aarrr... nono, i though we will go out eat in a family as usual?( Coz we wan her to
be free so at least we trick her by letting her think that only the family member is
celebreting with her)

Mom: like that ah, ok lar...( was not really excited about it)*Hang up*

So, eventually we change some plan by saying we having dinner with the family member. Here
comes the PLAN DESTROYER... My mom eventually call most of the ppl that WE INVITED to come
join us as well( She must have though that it was not fun only the family to have dinner
only). Ayo, plan under attack. So, eventually went she came, she was half suprise coz half
of them she noe there are coming. It was so funny that my mom and us have the same though of the ppl to invite. Eventually it was a day that we all cant forget for us. My mom got lotz of
present that day and eventually it was a blast. Here is some random pics of the night^^

25th Nov- Ipoh for cousin's wedding and snap some pics with some of my cousin that i have
not seen some time.

December

Many events happen here and luckily everything went smoothly. Some of the events are
Apiit UCTI Masquearade Ball 2006 @Zouk- I got to be the project manager for the 2nd time for this event but i got to noe it 2weeks before the event. Everything was not done and i did
lotx of things to get the event running. Miss Shamini( Sarc 2006 advisor) said to me ' if i
dont see any progress then i will cancel this event'. Thankfully Shanti and Dennis help me
with it and it was a success. Sarc came in to help later for the event as not much there can
do yet but thank god everyone help. Many things happen here, some of it are;

- Arguement involves and stress( duh....)

- Combining SARC 2006 and Sarc 2007 for this event

- Pleasing the parties involves- Finding performers

- Getting sponsorhip is the HARDEST!!!!!- Got to noe lotz of ppl- Budget is the 2nd HARDEST!!!

Here are some random pics

Shamini and SARC 2006 Farewell

It was time for Shamini to get married and is moving to another college, another city. Who
is she? She was the fonder of Sarc 2006, she make the effort to guide us and teach us wat to
do, wat not to do and she will seldom show anger and she was my first step to my success. I
cant thank her enough coz no matter wat, no wan can replace her. She was there for us many
many time and she can almost predict wat will happen. Without her, i would have lost my way
from all this events and i might still be unknown of wat i can do. I am going to miss her
badly and Apiit UCTI will nvr be the same as before. All the best in everything and congrats
on ur wedding. Good things always come to an end. i am going to miss u. Here is some random pics...

It was time for SARC 2006 to step down and SARC 2007 to step up. Many things i learn from
Student ARC and i am thankful i join it. Words jus cant describe how much i learn but i can
tell u this, by organising events, u learn to understand wat ppl are in a way and wat there
will do for money and friendship.

Student ARC 2006

Student ARC 2007

Student ARC 2006/2007

Other then those, i also went to the orphanage to help out for Apiit Charity week. It was
really interesting and ppl there are very very friendly. Here are some random of the pics.

Here is a good news, i got my very first car, MYVI... hapi^^... but it is not here yet...

CountDown 2006 @ Sungai Wang-As the same for many years, i always like going for countdown but this year, i didnt though
that this year end jus like that. It was jus like a blink of an eye that so many things has
happen. Bad and good... i am going to miss it but i dont wanna remember the bad... erm... i dont wan to remember 2006

A new year, a new start...