This few days have been like clubbing everynite and back home around 5am, this few days have also open my eyes on somethings and eventually make me realise there are many things that get me jealous and envy but as i tried to be more open minded about it, it came to my sense that life is much better. So wat if i'm single and the rest of my friends are in a relationship? So wat if my friends got laid and i went home alone? So wat if life is just a bitch?

Many thinggs in life we will be envy of someone else stuff, gf, bf, watever it is but thinking in another way, they are other ppl who are far pity then me and life is more bitchy for them. My life may not be as perfect as some ppl but at least i have friends, real good bunch of friends who are always here for me. Yea, maybe sexual stuff my friends cant give me but, can settle myself lar.

Of coz i still hope one day i will eventually found someone i can share my life with but maybe not the time is not here. My taste on my desire person is changing, i don't jus need someone adorable but only care about ownself but i need more then that. i dont like it anymore driving around fetching the person i love everywhere just because i have a car. i dont like anymore to give face everytime the person i love is piss off. I want someone who i like and also able to be in the same shoe as me.

It seems like yesterday that we were together, hand in hand, arm in arm together talking about how greatful we have for each other that things happen like it should but why izzit that it was not a hapi ending at all? i jus.......

" everytime i am thiking of u,
I just dunno wat to do,
Pinch myself went i am dreaming of u,
Making sure u can love me too,
I would slip away,all my hapi days,
So i'm acting cool,
Went i am feeling blue,
To show i am thru with u"

miss u a lot and jus cant let go of it.

Being in this world like for quite some time( 21years actually) and i feel that somethings cant be change or be force. Life is short, jus let it go and continue with my life...

Why did u leave me like this? Why izzit that everytime things seems to go smoothly and eventually something happen? Why izzit that i fall for u? Why is life so unfair....

I noe how it feels to get betray by someone u love coz it happen to me... not jus once or twice yet i nvr learn my lesson because i wan to fall in love but no matter how, the result will jus be the same. Izzit a curse? i wonder....

I miss tis pic and the time where everything was not so complicated....

Jus got the mood of blogging and though of writing some stuff i feel like saying out but dunno where to express it. It has been a rocking journey in tis past few months. Broke up a few times, found out stuff i rather not know it, did badly for my exams and assingments and some other stuff.



Have u ever fall in love with someone that u should not have or already know that that person is a player or is actually having a relationship but eventually as u found out, the person says to u, " Actually i already wanted to tell u" or that person dont give a damn to u anymore and didnt even say goodbye?



I have and it was not good. It all started with some happy fairy tales story and u though to yourself " i think i found the one" and everything was smooth, the eye contact was there, the feelings was there, the communication was perfect, the night was perfect and you though nth would go wrong at all.... BOOM, i found out that i was jus the 3rd party. But inside your heart, u still hope one day, the person come back to u.



I guess that happen to many many people before but i always believe in karma and learn to just take it like a man and move on wit my life.